Currently listening to Superstar, by G-Dragon while typing this.
I thought to myself what topic am I going to write about. But honestly I’m just letting my hands type away as I am thinking right now. I’ve been occupied this whole summer with various projects. The tarot card reading was right, this is my year to be productive with my career and that’s it. For the past 2 days, I’ve been taking it easy, laying low and just relaxing. I never relax and honestly I get jealous of people who can. A day off for me usually feels like a waste of time. I want to work and I want to be doing something. However, sometimes at the end of the day all I just want to sleep and wish for the day off.
I’m now on anti-depressants and I’ve been more cheerful or at least on a mental high. Some nights I want to cry like I usually do, and I just can’t. These meds just make you not want to cry. This is the same feeling I get when I’m smoking marijuana. I’ve cut off caffeine, alcohol, and any smoking for that matter. I’m just coasting and focusing on myself and getting close to certain people in my life. I don’t have the patience for stupid people and their drama, and their rants. If you’re mad at me, hate me, jealous, it’s like fuck man. I don’t care just let me live my life.
I’m just trying to be where I want to be and around what makes me happy. I don’t have time to get sucked into your negativity.
I’m ready to be the next big thing. I don’t have a big ego, I just know my worth.